All who read my blog, know that I've struggled with the way that my Dad left my Mom, and their marriage after 40 years. (without even a goodbye, and without remorse with a mistress on the side)
YES~!!! My Mom has re-connected with and is HAPPIER THAN SHE EVER HAS BEEN, with her fiancee (soon to be husband!).
BUT...this woman my dad married still broke my family apart. Their doings really put a strain on my Dad and me, My little brother and my Dad, and My brothers and I. Kind of like a test of strength.
I've forgiven my Dad. I haven't forgotten. I'm still praying for her conscious to wake up and realize what she has done. I'm still praying for my ability to forgive her.
At this point in my life, I never want to see her, meet her, or have any dealings with her what so ever.
Why am I writing this ???
My mind is heavy on it tonight, and I reach out to you for help, ideas, suggestions, and or prayer. (feel free to leave your comments here, or as most of you do text me, or email me).
I was able to help my little brother out with something tonight. While he and my husband worked on his vehicle...i took our kids, and his to the local Burger King, for supper, and to play. I also helped Jake and Tristyn with their homeworks.
While we were there, my Dad shows up, with guess who?! HER! I was overwhelmed with thoughts...but the biggest was WWJD?! (especially with the kids there, I didn't want to cause a scene).
I dealt with her presence. She even asked if it was okay for her to be around. (DUH!!! Lady...do u think I'm going to go off on you with my four kids right here underfoot!) Goodness!
No I didn't want her around. Her presence is not desired. In the Bible it says to shun the appearance of all evil. Pray for thy enemy. ..... Never had to deal with all this before, until the last two years.
She's evil. She literally came between my family, tearing each and every one of our relationships apart. She hasn't once, realized the wrong in what she did. She is my enemy, b/c I want so bad to make her hurt like she hurt me, and my own.
Having her sit across from me was the MOST uncomfortable moment of all time.
Why does this still bother me....even now that my Mom is more happier than she's been in 43 years! ????
As you can see I still need lots of mind development here. I just literally have NO desire for her, or her presence!!!
Will I always struggle with this. ???
